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April 19, 2006
Be Careful What You Wish For
The other day I had a vivid flashback to a time in '96 or '97, while I was at Disney, when I set a goal to be a"director" by 35. I then promptly forgot about the entire thing and just kept making what seemed like the "right" short term decisions, with little conscious thought to the long term.
So here I am, nearly 10 years later, 3-some years from my 35th, acting director of engineering at a public company, and hating it.
Be careful what you wish for indeed.
Yesterday morning I had a conversation with Kathy and Scott @ Valve (yea, ok, it's that game company, I'm tired of dancing around it), which helped address a few of my outstanding concerns (like that based on my tech interview I'd have scarlet letter on my door and be constantly needing to prove myself - she assured me, having sat in on the post-interview powwow, and more generally just based on the culture, that was far from the case). By the end of the call, I was way up on the Valve thing.
This morning I had coffee with one of the folks @ exbiblio (what's behind door number two), and as I predicted, I left the conversation jazzed about the prospect of working with them.
The more I critically think about the role at exbiblio, the more cautious I get. After being a bureaucrat for the last year or so, I really want to focus on solving technical problems again, rather than organizational or business problems.
That's pretty much Valve to a 'T', and while I could probably avoid direct management @ exbiblio (certainly in the short term, the engineering team could report to to Fred or Adam), it's probably unrealistic to believe I could escape the foundational conversations and decision making.
Additionally, one of my major issues with Real is their short-term revenue focus which often leads the organization to make bad decisions, sometimes in spite of a desire to "do the right thing." Financial pressure is certainly more of an issue at exbiblio than Valve.
The gears in my head keep turning...
Posted by dberger at April 19, 2006 11:11 AM